From the recording Dysphoric Recall
You know that twisted little trick your brain plays on you? The one where it takes the most gut-wrenching, soul-crushing experiences of your life and wraps them in a pretty little bow of nostalgia? That’s euphoric recall—the reason people keep running back to what broke them. Well, not this time.
“Dysphoric Recall” is the sound of a bad decision coming back to haunt you. This song drags you through the wreckage of a relationship built on deception and self-destruction, forcing you to relive every twisted moment of it. It’s dark, bitter, and merciless—just like the kind of love that leaves scars instead of memories.
The lyrics lay bare the masochistic cycle of falling for the same manipulative games, knowing full well how it ends. It’s about being torn between rage and addiction, between the need to escape and the sick craving for one more hit of the poison. The final blow? That brutal realization that you don’t just remember the pain—you need it.
Lyrics
Cunning eyes I'm paralysed, you got me spinning in the air
I closed the door yet you got in, I want to trust you but I'm scared
You're waiting patiently in the corner finding ways to pull me close
And yet again my bleeding heart knows you’ re the torment that I chose
You were the one who made me crawl
Pushed me hard just to see me fall
And I can't help but realise
How much I need this dysphoric recall
Another lie, so well disguised, though I somehow knew it from the start
that you and I would never work, another flesh of a corrupted heart
We built our worlds from empty words and we swore nothing would keep us apart now you're gone ,I'm left alone and dying is my art
You were the one who made me crawl
Pushed me hard just to see me fall
And I can't help but realise
How much I need this dysphoric recall
You haunt my dreams I hardly sleep
You are the hardest lesson I have learnt
My heart is no longer yours to keep
No matter all the times you hit your head
Your love is pain and hurt remains
your affection is abuse
I should have left you on that fucking beach
‘cause I got nothing left to lose
In slow demise I'm mesmerised, there's only suffering and pain ahead Another night, another minute that I'm wishing I was left for dead Feeling alive doesn't do much as I hear your whispers in my head How can I stop this misery? How can I dry the tears that I have shed?
You were the one who made me crawl
Pushed me hard just to see me fall
And I can't help but realise
How much I need this dysphoric recall