JUNE 27
June 27, I’m alive
Sipping on this drink of wine
Wasted till I'm 35
I forgot to breathe
Sitting in this empty room
Wasting every afternoon
But your picture on the wall
Is making me believe
Always searching never right
Every step takes me behind
I'm a shadow of this world
I did not choose to be in
June 27, I’m alive
Sipping on this drink of wine,
Wasted till I'm 35
I forgot to breathe
And all, all I ever wanted was you
No I didn’t think it through
All, all I ever wanted was you
There’s nothing more to say to...you
June 28 I’m still awake
How many blows can your heart take
Can’t drown the sorrow, one more line
to throw my mind to waste
Bloodshot eyes, restless mind
Daffodils blooming but I am blind
The world around me painted black
The walls are closing in
June 29 I’m still alive
but I can’t get off this crash dive
My head is spinning, dashing deep
I’m on a train derailed
Always searching never right
every step takes me behind
I'm a shadow of this world
I did not choose to be in
And all, all I ever wanted was you
No I didn’t think it through
All, all I ever wanted was you
There’s nothing more to say to you
And all, all I ever wanted was you
No I didn’t think it through
All, all I ever wanted was you
There’s one last thing to say now...
Medicated, complicated, everything collides
Devastated, fornicated, get out of my mind
The only thing I wanna do, is eighty six,
get rid of you
The thoughts, the pain that made me insane,
The strength you always used to feign
And deep inside my wicked mind
Wish I’d go first, leave you behind
If you could feel the way I do
Erase the end of line you drew.
--FIERY SERPENT
Sitting at the corner of the bar
When I heard a saddened sigh
Cigarette smoke got in my eye
I ordered whiskey in a jar
My thoughts I couldn't hide
Watery eyes, like an autumn sky
I tried to leave it all behind
But pain is living in my mind
How can I break away
Make the fiery serpent lose me
Even on the brightest day
I'll find excuses to abuse me
I raised my glass and drank some more
To keep my thoughts from racing
Forget the trouble that I'm facing
And all the things that I abhor
I'm suddenly embracing
My mind is always racing
I tried to leave it all behind
But pain is living in my mind
How can I break away
Make the fiery serpent lose me
Even on the brightest day
I'll find excuses to abuse me
Whatever I do
it's always there
It always lingers in the air
And when I think
I'm moving on
I end up on the floor
I tried to leave it all behind
But pain is living in my mind
How can I break away
Make the fiery serpent lose me
Even on the brightest day
I'll find excuses to abuse me
DEAD BEFORE MY EYES
No matter what you told them, no matter what you say
you were the biggest wretch to ever cross my way
It doesn’t make a difference, when will you realise?
Even if you try harder, you’re dead before my eyes
And if you ever cross my path, just walk away
Because I had more than enough, it’s time to pay
‘Cause you are nothing but a faded dream
a nightmare I have buried deep within
Despite the lies, the pain, the hatred you have spread
you know it well, without me you are dead
Continue spreading rumours, a little child's play
But you can never face me, no, you’re too scared anyway
You think that you can fool me? Manipulate the crowd?
Everyone who has met you, they know what you're about.
Lies!Lies! Lies!
And there’s nothing left to say, anyway
No, there is nothing you can do, but fade away
‘Cause you are nothing but a faded dream
a nightmare I have buried deep within
Despite the lies, the pain, the hatred you have spread,
you know it well, without me you are dead
‘Cause you are nothing but a faded dream
a nightmare I have buried deep within
Despite the lies, the pain, the hatred you have spread,
you know it well, without me you are dead
No, you are nothing but a faded dream
a nightmare I have buried deep within
Despite the lies, the pain, the hatred you have spread,
you know it well, without me you are dead
BITTERSWEET
Somehow you did it, you just woke up the dead
You make me forget the voices in my head
I’ve locked up my heart, thrown away the keys
but you make me feel alive when you’re on your knees
I won’t settle for the sparks I want the sun
You can cover me in bruises as you tear me apart
Throw me deep in your inferno, I am loving the thrill
The flames are growing higher as you head for the kill
But in the end it all seems fine
'Cause baby we are bittersweet
I don't want to know the secrets that you keep
You don’t need to say you're mine
Just lose yourself, let's feel this pain divine
PLEASURE IS PAIN IS PLEASURE IS PAIN
My mind is a casket for my withering strength
I could live without you though I’m better off dead
I wonder if it’s just your abuse that I miss
but I only feel alive when you’re on your knees
You can’t really hurt me if I hurt myself first
You tried to work your magic but I’m already cursed
Hey little punk, you’ve got to play nice
Because just like death I don’t happen twice
And in the end you’re going to cry…
'Cause baby we are bittersweet
I don't want to know the secrets that you keep
You don’t need to say you're mine
Just lose yourself, let's feel this pain divine
I ditched you last night and I felt no remorse
Your absence is hurting but your presence is worse
Sometimes I miss you when you’re not around
I want to touch you and feel you but I can’t dig you out
'Cause baby we are bittersweet
I don't want to know the secrets that you keep
You don’t need to say you're mine
Just lose yourself, let's feel this pain divine
'Cause baby we are bittersweet
I read in your eyes the secrets that you keep
I just want to know you're mine
Just lose yourself, let's feel this pain divine
CAT SONG
The thought of losing time is not my biggest fear anymore
I couldn't live without you, thinking of you when you're home alone
I need you so much I can't stand to think one day you will be gone
I think it's safe to say I never loved like I love you before
‘Cause I am dying deep inside
to think one day you will be gone
And I've been dreaming of a way
to keep you with me evermore
I hate to see you look at me
each time I leave and close the door
and every minute we’re apart
it only makes me miss you more
There’s no eternity, this life is short, I knew it all along
But when I wake up next to you I feel that nothing can go wrong
I can’t believe my luck, I cherish every moment that you’re here
Don’t want to lose you but I know each day the time is drawing near
And I am dying deep inside
to think one day you will be gone
so I've been dreaming of a way
to keep you with me evermore
I hate to see you look at me
each time I leave and close the door
and every minute we’re apart
it only makes me miss you more
And I am dying deep inside
to think one day you will be gone
so I've been dreaming of a way
to keep you with me evermore
I hate to see you look at me
each time I leave and close the door
and every minute we’re apart
it only makes me miss you more
And I am dying deep inside
to think one day you will be gone
so I've been dreaming of a way
to keep you with me evermore
I hate to see you look at me
each time I leave and close the door
I’d love to have you near
You are the ones that I adore
GIVE THE DEVIL HIS DUE
We are ever striving after what is forbidden...
Outside a storm was brewing, gleaming light of dawn
I was strumming my guitar when I heard pounding on the door
I asked “who’s that there knocking? You disturb my daybreak calm!”
He said “you know exactly who I am and why I’ve come!”
I’ve heard you countless times whispering my name
so it was time for me to come and set your soul aflame
I know all your desires, your every darkest wish
I’m sure you’ll like it when I dive Inside your mind’s abyss
Oh if you knew, what’s in store for you
yeah if you knew, you’d give the devil his due
I’ve met many stubborn bitches but no-one quite like you
You’re dead inside but I don’t mind, I’ll make you bend askew
I said “excuse me sir, I like your style but I didn’t catch your name”
He answered “it’s the one you call when you need someone to blame”
He poured a glass of whiskey, slowly moving close
Girl I got that magic dust to make your head explode
He licked his lips and muttered “we’re off to a good start
You see, it’s not so hard to dance with Satan on your back”
Close your eyes now child and give yourself to me
It’s time to realise your wildest fantasy
Come closer, don’t you fear
I’ll make you scream my name
It’s all your fault my dear,
you’ve only got yourself to blame
You’ve got yourself to blame
Blame…
Oh if you knew, what’s in store for you
yeah if you knew, you’d give the devil his due
Oh if you knew, what’s in store for you
yeah if you knew, you’d give the devil his due
WAR INSIDE MY HEAD
I built myself a cage to lock up all my feelings
Stalling, destroying, time wasting is my sin
I handed out my days to you, my only precious gift
Now I forgot…
…All that I know
My insides are bleeding
Why can’t you see?
I am hanging by a thread
Nobody can save me now
From the war inside my head
The tide is coming in to wash it all away
Screaming my lungs out but you still can’t hear my pain
A memory of all the things that could have been
The void within
Lady Lazarus broke her chains and left the building
Her words are bleeding one by one inside my mind
‘The cold white light’ plays on repeat throughout this evening
The poet’s dead
I can’t escape
My insides are bleeding
Why can’t you see?
I am hanging by a thread
Nobody can save me now
From the war inside my head
DYSPHORIC RECALL
Cunning eyes I'm paralysed, you got me spinning in the air
I closed the door yet you got in, I want to trust you but I'm scared
You're waiting patiently in the corner finding ways to pull me close
And yet again my bleeding heart knows you’ re the torment that I chose
You were the one who made me crawl
Pushed me hard just to see me fall
And I can't help but realise
How much I need this dysphoric recall
Another lie, so well disguised, though I somehow knew it from the start
that you and I would never work, another flesh of a corrupted heart
We built our worlds from empty words and we swore nothing would keep us apart
now you're gone ,I'm left alone and dying is my art
You were the one who made me crawl
Pushed me hard just to see me fall
And I can't help but realise
How much I need this dysphoric recall
You haunt my dreams I hardly sleep
You are the hardest lesson I have learnt
My heart is no longer yours to keep
No matter all the times you hit your head
Your love is pain and hurt remains
your affection is abuse
I should have left you on that fucking beach
‘cause I got nothing left to lose
In slow demise I'm mesmerised, there's only suffering and pain ahead
Another night, another minute that I'm wishing I was left for dead
Feeling alive doesn't do much as I hear your whispers in my head
How can I stop this misery? How can I dry the tears that I have shed?
You were the one who made me crawl
Pushed me hard just to see me fall
And I can't help but realise
How much I need this dysphoric recall
SAME OLD FIRE
There was a time when my mind was a peaceful place
But down the line, I have started a war
All that I hoped for, seems now a utopic phase
Leaving me restless and craving for more
There was a time, when your star was aligned with mine
And all my horrors your heart could still hold
Such a world insane, the same old fire
Burning brightly, so why am I still cold?
It's useless to stand there when all has been said and done
It's easy to lie when your heart has grown cold
What happens to dreams when old fear takes you by the hand?
Where have your plans gone to conquer the world?
You can break my heart, set my soul in flames
In this endless rapture I have grown insane
Still you hold the key to this empty space
And the same old fire will just burn away
It's useless to stand there when all has been said and done
It's easy to lie when your heart has grown cold
What happens to dreams when old fear takes you by the hand?
We missed our last chance to conquer the world
SPINELESS CREATURES
Spineless creatures down the hall
afraid to live, afraid to love
Wake up work, sleep and repeat
you are marching to the beat
Spineless creatures down the hall
please stop knocking on my door
I can’t give you what you need
Alone I suffer, alone I bleed
Sentiments are ostracized
to this land far far away
where your souls are locked
banging walls, wanting to play
Spineless creatures down the hall
I can’t fuck your empty core
You can’t give me what I need
I won’t let you supersede
Nothing matters anymore
getting crushed and ask for more
out of sight is out of mind
we are slowly turning blind
Nothing matters any more
only numbers, paper whore
if you would die today
Which part of you will stay?
Devoid of substance, sick from love
TV on, cerebrum off
All imprisoned without chains
Lit up screens and shit for brains
Cogs of the control machine
the more you get the more you give
Gilded cages glorified
You won’t stop until you die
Programmed zombies everywhere
vacant stares without a care
“to thine own self be true”
Will I end up one of you?
Nothing matters anymore
we are rotting to the core
there’s no way for us to thrive
when we barely feel alive
Nothing matters any more
pop the pill you so abhor
I killed my soul today
please make it go away
Spineless creatures…
Spineless creatures…
Spineless creatures…
Spineless creatures…
DEATH BY A THOUSAND CUTS
You had me once but now I’m gone
You yelled at me, I yelled some more
You slapped my face and slammed the door
Death by a thousand cuts
Break my heart a hundred times
Mock me tell me that you’re mine
Fatality of your vicious crime
Death by a thousand cuts
And even though we faded and the truth is coming through
The only thing I needed was to live inside of you
Your love was just a fraud but I bet your smile is true
As you’re carrying my casket
As you lay me in my tomb
Surrender to this pain so sweet
Inside this torture I’m complete
Seal my eyes, eternal sleep
Death by a thousand cuts…
All lyrics written by Eirini ‘Absinthe Green’
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